~ All StarTed WitH That CameRa ~

as u all knw ive been busy with NS.. well posting out soon,,, harap2 la law test pass oi...

well lately.. hmmm.. what should i start with... hmmmmm...

ok ghettos... i miss u all.... in fact i miss all the people that im close with....

sorry i need to reduce in meeting u guys as i need my time with baby... pls understand...

my mind cant get peace until ive spend time for like more than 24 hours u know....

but dont worry as my ns gg to erm... p.o.c... haha more tym i haf kk...

i promise kk...

for my ns life.. its been more teruk in studies slack abit in fitness...

aiyo stress tau law !!! hahahhaa

tkpe bolebole...

now my life.. wana sign on or not... im not so sure... its gg to make my future bright if i sign on...

but being there inside for another like 4 months??? must i say 16 times of goodbye to my baby?? aiya i cnt sia...

i dowan to lose her as i love so much....hmmmm

nvm i will think about it ok...

as for family... now i haf two... yay.. mine and baby's.. woohhoooo..

but still not that happy cos of her cuzzyy.. wahh !!!! tkpe tkpe..  aku sabar eh .. 

satu je ar aku bole cakp.. tk suke nk bbl meh bbl depan2... sorang2...

asl tkle ajak kawan??? ni hal antare aku ngn kau... lau panggil kwn2 kecut pah...

tk payah tunggu main bola ni smue.. ni smue bukan adat laki2.. ni budak2 lagi...

dgr2 kene ape? bantai ngn teck y? asl tk fight balik? kate champion..

kk aku da malas nk bbl pasal ni.. nk masuk kan august.. selamt tinggl bro.. t.c kat dlm.. 

kk pasal bby... hmm.. lots of things dealing with...

fights happy all..

ok ive read all ur post just now..  ok i knw how u feel...

firstly let me say this... im sorry for hurting u tis much..

BE IT ...

with my egoness, harsh words, anger and hmm i dono la...

sorry for everything.. n sorry ive not being the guy that u want me to be... u know la wat...

now i tell u how i feel bout our r/s, and u..

firstly, i dont trust u that much... as u haf been lying to me all this while..

futhermore u using ibu as ur reason... baik b baik.. sungguh baik b...

secondly.. ur ego now rise up .. not saying wen u are pms ke tk its still the same..

yes i want u to be serious.. this is not serious.. this is showing att u understand..

serious is sitting down n talk.. telling all the (TRUTH) ...

not saying g mati ar.. g mampos ar... skg da biase ckp gitu eh .. da pandai... nk sangt i tinggalkn u?

nak sangat b**** ??  da strt mcm tk kesah je i tgk... yes my ego hurts u.. my harsh words saying bodoh...

sorry ar .. but haf i say g mampos/mati ar .. pape nk jadi jadi ar.. confirm tk confrm... da strt ar perangai u towards i...

wtv it is i hope it will end ar.. i tk pena sey ckp mcm gitu kat u.. i think u said to me for 3/4 times like that..

say it to me like that again.. hampe sak dgr sumpah sia !!!

thirdly.. are still afraid of talking to me face to face...

am i a lamp pos to u somtimes? hey c'mon ar b.. ppl make mistakes n they noe its their mistke,

for god sake, they noe how to react sey to cool their boify or girlfy down.. not only saying sorry like half hearted girl..

its really pissing me off sey... u r not DUMB to me.. u somtimes ACT as 1...

i hate this thing replay and replay each time i c u.. its not tat diffclt sia...

what u mean if i make a mistake, i jus kept quiet, waiting for bulan jatuh aru bbl???

or waiting for u to talk den i say sorry.. are u gone b happy if things were like that??

i hope not ar b.. think ar b pls... da brape kali sey terjadi.. this is not blaming ar but somehow im treating wat im saying to u is encouragement..

i try to understand ar that u tk tau pujok sgt tapi melampau sey sampai terus tk tahu..

haish.. sampai bile b nk macam gini..

lastly.. ur last post was.. 'i miss smilling n having fun with u like the pix on top..'

' did we take pix, laughs or wat ar i duno'..............

ok let me tell u.. i will try to be like my old times.. but i cant be that way as now u slalu da strt prangai..

do u think, if u tk tipu i, tk prangai, ikot dgr ckp i, tk pakai baju2 yg tk cukup kain, smue tu ar,

i will b smilling n laughing n b wtv u want me to be?? do u think tat way??

im trying my best to be happy with u after we tok wen syafiq came to the rescue.. im starting to trust u,

being with u all times and be smilling with u, until that saturday, probs with my fren accident,

ur *beloved* cuzzin, n ur sluar *baru* .... ibu ckp tu kat i.. u ingt i tk malu... u nk mak ckp kat u gitu...

u ingt i tk mangkuk ??

wtv u r thinking bout our r/s, pls hink hard n trying to win my trust sia b.. pls think wtv u want to do, say or wat ar..

as im thinking always before saying somthing to u sia b.. i already promis i wont say her name again..

ive kept it.. y arent u b?? keeping ur words to me?? ok i dowan u to stress out ar.. 

i jus want to release all things in my mind.. in fact i still love u like always n hoping that u will change n i will too..

FOR US, OUR RELATIONSHIP, HAPPINESS !!!!

i love u b pls dun leave me...

k readers.. lastly, im sorry bout my dear fren AIDIL.. sorry bnyk2 for the trouble ive cause..

hope u recover n maintain a good life.. need help i promise i will try my very best to be there standing beside u ..

k la thats all folk... sape2 yg bace tk puas hati maaf yer.. i love u b.. i love u alot wifey..

muacks muaaaaaccckkkksssss =))))