~ All StarTed WitH That CameRa ~

EvERYoNE hAS THEIR MISTAKES B..

U DO HAF.. I HOPE ITS GONA B LAST TIME U TEXTING HIM BEHIND ME..

IF U STILL LOVE HIM TELL ME..

I DUN MIND LETTING U GO..

I KNW IF U LOSE ME, U GT A SPARE BY UR SIDE..

TELL ME THE TRUTH U DUN HAF ANY FEELINGS TOWARDS HIM..

U DUN CNTCT HIM NO MORE..

U DUN EVEN DARE MSG HIM..

Y HIM IN ALL PERSON..

B.. PLS LAST B..

MAKE ME TRUST U B.. PLS B...

ALL THIS WHILE WEN U ARE WITH ME U ARE CNTCTNG WITH HIM..

B.. U LOVE TO LIE.. U LOVE IT ALOT MEH??

U LOVE HURTING ME? 

I DOWAN TO HURT U OR GETTING HURT B.. PLS

as u all knw ive been busy with NS.. well posting out soon,,, harap2 la law test pass oi...

well lately.. hmmm.. what should i start with... hmmmmm...

ok ghettos... i miss u all.... in fact i miss all the people that im close with....

sorry i need to reduce in meeting u guys as i need my time with baby... pls understand...

my mind cant get peace until ive spend time for like more than 24 hours u know....

but dont worry as my ns gg to erm... p.o.c... haha more tym i haf kk...

i promise kk...

for my ns life.. its been more teruk in studies slack abit in fitness...

aiyo stress tau law !!! hahahhaa

tkpe bolebole...

now my life.. wana sign on or not... im not so sure... its gg to make my future bright if i sign on...

but being there inside for another like 4 months??? must i say 16 times of goodbye to my baby?? aiya i cnt sia...

i dowan to lose her as i love so much....hmmmm

nvm i will think about it ok...

as for family... now i haf two... yay.. mine and baby's.. woohhoooo..

but still not that happy cos of her cuzzyy.. wahh !!!! tkpe tkpe..  aku sabar eh .. 

satu je ar aku bole cakp.. tk suke nk bbl meh bbl depan2... sorang2...

asl tkle ajak kawan??? ni hal antare aku ngn kau... lau panggil kwn2 kecut pah...

tk payah tunggu main bola ni smue.. ni smue bukan adat laki2.. ni budak2 lagi...

dgr2 kene ape? bantai ngn teck y? asl tk fight balik? kate champion..

kk aku da malas nk bbl pasal ni.. nk masuk kan august.. selamt tinggl bro.. t.c kat dlm.. 

kk pasal bby... hmm.. lots of things dealing with...

fights happy all..

ok ive read all ur post just now..  ok i knw how u feel...

firstly let me say this... im sorry for hurting u tis much..

BE IT ...

with my egoness, harsh words, anger and hmm i dono la...

sorry for everything.. n sorry ive not being the guy that u want me to be... u know la wat...

now i tell u how i feel bout our r/s, and u..

firstly, i dont trust u that much... as u haf been lying to me all this while..

futhermore u using ibu as ur reason... baik b baik.. sungguh baik b...

secondly.. ur ego now rise up .. not saying wen u are pms ke tk its still the same..

yes i want u to be serious.. this is not serious.. this is showing att u understand..

serious is sitting down n talk.. telling all the (TRUTH) ...

not saying g mati ar.. g mampos ar... skg da biase ckp gitu eh .. da pandai... nk sangt i tinggalkn u?

nak sangat b**** ??  da strt mcm tk kesah je i tgk... yes my ego hurts u.. my harsh words saying bodoh...

sorry ar .. but haf i say g mampos/mati ar .. pape nk jadi jadi ar.. confirm tk confrm... da strt ar perangai u towards i...

wtv it is i hope it will end ar.. i tk pena sey ckp mcm gitu kat u.. i think u said to me for 3/4 times like that..

say it to me like that again.. hampe sak dgr sumpah sia !!!

thirdly.. are still afraid of talking to me face to face...

am i a lamp pos to u somtimes? hey c'mon ar b.. ppl make mistakes n they noe its their mistke,

for god sake, they noe how to react sey to cool their boify or girlfy down.. not only saying sorry like half hearted girl..

its really pissing me off sey... u r not DUMB to me.. u somtimes ACT as 1...

i hate this thing replay and replay each time i c u.. its not tat diffclt sia...

what u mean if i make a mistake, i jus kept quiet, waiting for bulan jatuh aru bbl???

or waiting for u to talk den i say sorry.. are u gone b happy if things were like that??

i hope not ar b.. think ar b pls... da brape kali sey terjadi.. this is not blaming ar but somehow im treating wat im saying to u is encouragement..

i try to understand ar that u tk tau pujok sgt tapi melampau sey sampai terus tk tahu..

haish.. sampai bile b nk macam gini..

lastly.. ur last post was.. 'i miss smilling n having fun with u like the pix on top..'

' did we take pix, laughs or wat ar i duno'..............

ok let me tell u.. i will try to be like my old times.. but i cant be that way as now u slalu da strt prangai..

do u think, if u tk tipu i, tk prangai, ikot dgr ckp i, tk pakai baju2 yg tk cukup kain, smue tu ar,

i will b smilling n laughing n b wtv u want me to be?? do u think tat way??

im trying my best to be happy with u after we tok wen syafiq came to the rescue.. im starting to trust u,

being with u all times and be smilling with u, until that saturday, probs with my fren accident,

ur *beloved* cuzzin, n ur sluar *baru* .... ibu ckp tu kat i.. u ingt i tk malu... u nk mak ckp kat u gitu...

u ingt i tk mangkuk ??

wtv u r thinking bout our r/s, pls hink hard n trying to win my trust sia b.. pls think wtv u want to do, say or wat ar..

as im thinking always before saying somthing to u sia b.. i already promis i wont say her name again..

ive kept it.. y arent u b?? keeping ur words to me?? ok i dowan u to stress out ar.. 

i jus want to release all things in my mind.. in fact i still love u like always n hoping that u will change n i will too..

FOR US, OUR RELATIONSHIP, HAPPINESS !!!!

i love u b pls dun leave me...

k readers.. lastly, im sorry bout my dear fren AIDIL.. sorry bnyk2 for the trouble ive cause..

hope u recover n maintain a good life.. need help i promise i will try my very best to be there standing beside u ..

k la thats all folk... sape2 yg bace tk puas hati maaf yer.. i love u b.. i love u alot wifey..

muacks muaaaaaccckkkksssss =)))) 

ns now like normal 5 days inside.. can die..

waiting to go out hang out with family friends and Baby...

inside whenever wondering wat bby doing out dere.. hope she is telling me all the truth...

book out now.. meet baby yesterday n today.. y mus we fight every single time..

my egoness.. and my angerness... huh b...

look at urself also ar... ur werking fine i understand.. where u go ..

sometimes u tell me but not all the time..

y must u lie sia.,.

u wan me to trust u but wat is dis sia b...

im stress like wth wen i go out i face all dis.. my tears swear are dropping ryte now..

giving up y  not becos we fight alot of time n we settle down together..

went through alot of times.. but must it be always.. sumpah sia penat..

im sure u felt it too in fact u give up already becos we fight always.. haish

b i love u sia.. y everyttime i ask a quetions u will not ans me full...

y sey.. isit so hard.. y must it always b like this i hate myself sia of being a angry arrogant  ego...

im sorry sia b.. i tnk kite break sia b i tanak pls stop all tis tings b pls b

went n.s for 2 weeks !! like WTH !!!!

tiring but ok la.. my F.I abit ngade ngade.. aiya.. but wat to do need to relax..

im strong i knw i can...

missing baby like hell wen inside..

now kite da jumpe !! yay !!

b, sorry for wat ive say hurts u.. i dun mean to hurt u sayang.. i dun..

haiya i haf a bad mouth. im a jerk la b.. ego so high.. haish .. sorri eh u dapat matair mcm i.. dasar pantat !!

bby thanks for everything staying by my side all day long.. i hope u will stay forever.. I HOPE !!!

salleh n fee thanks for the kindness of u all taking care of her.. salleh, i owe u 1..

sorry my msg is to b clear, i trust u guys, but the thing is, i jus want to knw, where u go, wat for, with who?

that simple 3 question, u all ans me like wtf !! haish.. nvm.. i haf to go ns, jus hope u all b ok out dere..

i knw u all can b happy without me.. i knw u can..

in fact somtimes wen im around, trouble occur.. haish i feel im the black sheep.. hoping all my mistakes is to b forgiven..

feel like crying now, sorry guys i bring u all down especially baby..

BABY pls forgive me ... i love u, i want u, i need u, i miss u, i dowan u to leave me, and i wont leave u i promis with all my heart..

baby.. sorry fo wat i said to u, punching u, im sorry k.. u r the best to me.. im ego becaus if i puji, u will change back to the old 1..

i hate it alot tau b.. haish forgive me every1, i love u guys, i love SAFIRAH INDALLAH !!!

ok back blogging..

so stress ryte now.. haish baby pls .. i dowan fight..

its jus tat i dun like ur decision now..

pls baby tink properly wat we haf fought b4 till now..

change? haf u b.. i dun expect much but still ..

k today plan cock up cos of yesterday..

yes im piss off its bcos of baby.. haish..

i wish i could tell to u everything b..

i hope things will b settle by today wen u come my house..

i hope so..

fuck i cant stop crying.. ns guy cry who cares wat ppl sae..

i dono wat else to sae now.. brain cracking, head falling, heart breaking, me pissing, life turning - ups n downs..

baby.. u knw i love u so much.. i jus dowan to fight..

sorie ive been a jerk who like to scold or wat sorie.. i jus need a hug ryte now okay from u baby..

hello sons n daugthers, hahaha im back to update...

haish firstly baby looks so hot wearing baju kurung..

wohoooo i like.... 

yesterday went out with her .. haha go henderson waves !!!

first time with a special person.. 

my baby la aboden !!!!

haish i miss her alot...

k bck to now gg off to bed soon...

jus get back meeting bby...

haish... im worried n scared n arrrggghhhh i duno la..

what will b the situation off our relationship when i serve ns...

bby dancing soon.. no time for me so much...

working oso... hmm....

wen u dance b, dun ever cntct with other guys k..

but if u do.. then its up to u la... haish... 

if u wish to leave me then do so k... dun play ariund first...

but if u wan then go ahead.. hurt me more until i die...

i love u sey syg... pls dun hurt or leave me...

wen im inside t.c of urself stick to girls more or my frens...

k.. if u stick to a guy.. a guy.. scared u would fall for him n dun tink bout me...

wen i bookout u tkde mood nk jumpe.. haish seram sey !!!

if now u sae no, later its a yes how??? erm i hope,

in ur heart there will always b me...

cause mine is always u...

k... i love u syg dun leave, forget me k....

tats all haish i cant slip kept thinking bout tis stuff shit !!

gdnit everybody... i love miss baby alot !!!!! 

DEAR BLOGGY,, IM SAD,, N Y CANT I WRITE IN SMALL LETTERS?? CRAZY...

FIRSTLY .. B, A DAE TO SPEND TIME MOSTLY WITH U N SEEING YOUR FACE BUT DIDNT MAKE IT,

IF MY CUZZY HATE ME OR WAT LET THEM B, IF THEY THINK I KONGKONG U LET THEM B..

ONLY U KNW WHATS HAPPENING WHOS FAULT K.. 

I JUS DUN MIND YOU GO ANYWHR BUT I WILL STILL WORRY..

BUT I HATE PPL TO CHANGE MINDS INFRONT OF OTHER PPL...

ARE U AFRAID OF ME??? JUS TELL ME THE TRUTH CAN..

HIDING IS NOT A SOLUTION FOR ME OK...

OK NVM HOPE U ENJOY DERE WITHOUT ME BEING UR SIDE...

TRUTHFULLY FIRST U MAKE ME UPSET..

DEN PISS OFF.. Y? COS U ASK ME TO GO HOME STRAIGHT NO NEED TO PICK U...

W.T.H.. U DO A MISTAKE, DEN U DOWAN FACE ME.. HAISH..

JUS FINISHING SAYING SORRY BUT STILL DO AGAIN..

WAT IM FEELING NOW THINKING NOW IS THAT WILL THIS B FOREVER??

GETTING HURT... MY FEELINGS ARE SO STRONG N I EASILY GET SAD N ANGRY..

NVM I TAHAN N SABAR..

HAISH... ENDING UP WITH KARAOKE WITH SIS.. LUCKILY I CAN SMILE...

I DID ENJOY AR, BUT IM STILL ANGRY N SAD OVER U B... BUT I DOWAN U TO NOTICE IT..

IF AT POINT OF TIME, U DOWAN TO MEET ME CCOS SUMTYMS BCOS OF ME UR DAY WILL RUIN TELL ME...

K... OK TATS ALL FOR TODAE I CNT SLIP WELL THINKING BOUT B..

N MY LEGG SUCKS... 2MR B HAF WEDDING TO ATTEND.. NOT MEETING HER...

HAISH... GONA B LONG... IMY ILY B... ILL JUS ACCEPT THE FACT OF GETTING HURT..

IF IM ANGRY, IM SORRY... GDNIT B I LOVE NEED MISS U... 

BCK HOME... YES LA FINALLY LYING DOWN ON BED...

FUHHH MATE STEAM... THANKS BBY TUNGGU I...

I SYANG U SORANG TAU... MUACKS 

GONA SLEEP NOW WEEEE HOPE MEET BBY LATER...

I LOVE U ALONE WIFEY MUACKS !!!

HAISH BREAK TIME ON WORK..

GOT WIRELESS SO NOW UPDATING..

HAISH WORK DOING CASHIER LIKE FUCK..

FIRST WAS OK DEN GOT A CUSTOMER CHANGE 1000 DOLER...

WTF !!! DEN I CHANGE FOR HIM, MANAGER KNWS LATER I KENA FUCK !!!!

WALAU !!! SHORTAGE AT FIRST DEN MARK N SALLEH COUNT AGAIN NO SHORTAGE FUHHHHHH

WANA TALK WITH BBY BBY GO DINEER DIDNT CHARGE HP SHIT AR..

I WANA TALK ... HAISH BBY GET DISTRACTED SO EASILY...

ARE THINKING BOUT ME B??? ARE U???

HAISH... THIS PART I NEED TO CALM DOWN...

UNTIL SHE CHANGE HAISH....NVM GONA WORK UNTIL 3... SO TIRING...

MISS BABY ALOT.. 

HOPE U CHAANGE UR ...... K B...

baby, i knw wat happen to us lately..

im sorry baby .. i really am..

im too much in thinking k.. im just so sorry..

maybe iM jUS SO TIRED..

I lOVE U ALWAYS SEY B..

LETS CHANGE FOR THE BETTER K

I LOVE U WIFEY.. U KNOW I KNOW K..

HEEES MUAACCCCCKKKKKSSSSSS !!!!